Self Sabotage

I no longer sabotage myself.

I asked Spirit to remove people from my life who were no longer for me and the silence that rang from my phone was loud.

Contacts I thought would be so lively at this point in my career are dead.

Family, friends, and lovers alike fall in the shadows of the past; with love.

The impulse to reach out for attention of habit was the most difficult issue my ego had to digest.

Each time a phone call went unanswered or plans rejected, I was sent into deep reflection.

Questioning the value, credibility, and intimacy of the connection.

Did I really care at all?

To be honest, I didn’t.

In the past my ego got the best of me but not this time.

There are other sources that deserve my attention.

I no longer push when the past pulls.

I stopped creating false expectations.

The lies I told myself could no longer be recited as I had grown bored with the drama and inconsistency.

I feel no way that I won’t satisfy shallow promises made naively before all truth was revealed.

If we no longer align, it’s just not our time.

The present is the only gift I open.

I let go of history.

It is no longer my pleasure to be of discomfort for the sake of others who only want me for the benefit of themselves.

I send you Moore love as I heal in peace.

Orisha Sevyn ♥️